I've been studying different aspects of Karma or another words, the energy that inevitably comes back because of our own energetic signature in all bodies~Physical, emotional, mental etc. Here's a few ways to look at it.
The energy that we are contains, what we think, say and do. With in THAT contains our unconscious, sub conscious and conscious the sub and un conscious have many vibrations we are not exactly aware, meaning they contain many beliefs, emotions, Fears AND Loves whether it feels "right" or "wrong" because we may not actually INTEND for our vibration to attract a certain situation, depending on the time in our lives, place, company with our conscious mind (the more surface thoughts/ideas)
Using the title of this as an example:
A Player : Pretty much everyone has an idea of what that title means. Both genders could be a player. To me; it's someone that manipulates through lies, deception, fake-fronts, plays on emotions, or something along those lines in order to use others and many times, multiple partners' energy (attention) to get a sense of self gratification, confidence boost, money, the feeling of what they think is love, emotional support or in some cases it's a power game~literally calculating when and how to operate consistently, in some cases the exact same people (and each one for a different energy-type syphoning) for more or less than a year, to evoke some sense of power over others.
I talk to many walks of life so this could be for males or females playing men/women or both.
If someone is playing at least 3 people at a time and has made up excuses that seem logical to the different people that are being played, as to why they (the player) can't always be around (work, school, working out, practice, etc.) and is consistent with those excuses. And uses all 3 people for different energies (reasons) and not even having sex with all but one, another one for money, and another one for constant emotional support.
This person has to use constant attention giving tactics (but usually very minimally, because remember they're main interest is to take) and seeming interested in each and maybe are to a point but not fully. This person using lying, cheating (obviously, because the player never tells them about each other to give them a fair knowing of what they are getting into and that would include them not receiving all of that positive energy)~ manipulation emotionally or mentally (especially if they may think about leaving them) basically overall being a con-artist.
What the player is doing no matter what tactic or many..is putting that energy into their own vibrational field, attracting more lack and increasing that lack mentality. This means putting, paranoia (of being caught or losing one or more), poverty consciousness, powerlessness, lies, being cheated (not necessarily sexually but maybe not getting that promotion or advancement as an example, mental anguish or overthinking, worthiness issues (attracting others or circumstances that result in them not feeling worthy or seeing their worth, possibly resentment, and more but most of all they are entraining (no matter how sexual they are with all 3 of them, kissing, foreplay, full on intercourse, constant thinking of how to keep it going with each, they are strongly entraining (connecting to all 3 vibrational frequencies of each individual) much of the time, most likely daily...now consider how many emotions or situations all 3 of those people go through on a daily~ a LOT of F'ing energy. Plus, if all 3 people suddenly at the same time want the players attention they to some degree take the energy of the player, by building cords to them, most likely in different chakras.
NOW what to do if YOU got played (in other words what could have happened that those people have attracted some one that has serious attention addiction)
Remember what was said at the beginning~ we attract our thoughts, words and actions which includes our Fears AND Loves on a conscious or subconscious level and some may mention that this includes an accumulation of other life times~I'll leave you to your beliefs about that.
Either way, LISTEN TO YOUR INTUITION if something consistently feels off about someone, don't lie to yourself, no one is worth more than you... do a self check (I've given plenty of ways in my blog or talk to a healer of some kind to make sure you're not paranoid (but don't let someone else convince you of that...that's a strong player tactic or even someone that is jealous)
Do a self check:
Are you afraid of being cheated on, lied to, manipulated, abandonment issues, lack mentality (seeing that there's not one person that could fullfill your needs essentially you have to become the person you wish to attract or have strong beliefs to attract a certain person, did/do you have parents or people that have influence over you, have addictions growing up or now, hard time trusting yourself, are attention needy yourself, have imbalances with over giving, powerlessness or worthiness issues, or have a victim mentality (attracting more things, people, situations) to blame to keep staying in victim-hood OR something else...
Drop your shoulders and take a big breath and now do it again~
It's a big fucking energy game people. The quicker you can stay empowered and fuel YOURSELF from the earth, your heart, your spirit self, your own mental chatter (positive affirmations) The better your confidence >>true confidence from self not using others for it, self appreciation/love, health, prosperity consciousness and attract positive experiences all around.
You MUST check your own ass
What is your life containing right now
what are your dominant thoughts
what is it that you truly want in life
Who do you need to forgive? By forgiving and letting go..you also let go of the karma~what you are and what you will/are attracting.
Read empowering books, music, conversation, find news ways to value yourself. This all will include change which can feel off at first but if you really want something...then do it/go for it by EMBODYING IT.
Karma by Alicia Keys
What goes around comes back around by Justin Timberlake
Here is a list of some books, that I can think of at the moment, that contain useful information to improve life in several areas.
1. Thank and Grow Rich, E-Squared, E-Cubed~ All by Pam Grout
2. The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle
3. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
4. Money and the Law of Attraction Ester Hicks (or any book by that name)
5. You can heal your life by Louis Hay
6. Your body does't lie by John Diamond
7. The Optimist Creed by Christian D Larson
8. Money: master the game by Tony Robbins
9. Any book by Sonia Roman And Duane Packer
10. Energy Medicine by Donna Eden
11. Living in Gratitude by Angeles Arrien
12. The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield
13. The 4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
14. The Energy Prescription by Constance Grauds and Doug Childers
15. The Astonishing Power of Emotions ~by Ester & Jerry Hicks (The teachings of Abraham)
16. Becoming Supernatural by Joe Dispenza
17. Breaking the habit of being yourself by Joe Dispenza
18. Love, Sex and Awakening by Margot Anand
19. Think and Grown Rich by Napolean Hill
20. Life span (why we age and why we don't have to) by David A. Sinclair
This site is for public reading for all~ Nothing written is implied is to diagnose, treat, fix or anything else that could be interpreted as professional guidance such as a psychologist, counselor or otherwise. It is for entertainment only and if it helps great~ but I am not responsible for how anyone either practices or perceives this information. My sole intention is to help people be the best versions of themselves by becoming more authentic and whole, which I think takes a good healthy look at deeper topics ~ take what resonates and leave the rest~share with whomever may be in search for more fulfillment ..
In the event you may want to reach out to me in person~ this is not a place for personal interaction. I think most people know that but just in case that is not clear, It is now~
Enjoy this year to the fullest and remember to stay grounded and focused on your highest potential!
This is a book that I have just finished reading
The above is an exert from the book and I think it ties nicely in with the last post I made~This along with many other great tips of advice are timeless~I'm grateful to Eckhart Tolle for writing this book. I thought it was synchronistic enough to have read this after I wrote the last entry and thus am sharing~
There are many reasons addictions take form in the first place but also the same reason it takes form is not always the same reason it stays in place, sometimes for several years or even a lifetime for some.
To me, aside from the born physical addictions ~ example if a baby is born to a Crack addicted mother, then that baby has a chance of being addicted to the drug Crack as well ~ the other reasons mainly boil down to relief. Relief from Self, What is perceive as "Life", Pain~Physical/Emotional or Psychological, feeling weak, and many other various reasons~still ending up at being relief from something.
Below, are several forms of addictions that I don't see as readily spoken about, aside the more public ones sex, food, drugs (pharmaceutical or recreational) or alcohol.
Dramas~addiction to energy from others individually or groups
Is incredibly addicting for a lot of the population around the planet. I see this being highly associated with the news, gossip columns, social media, magazines, music, theater or politics. This is where people get hooked from the relief that their own lives are better than that which they see, read or listen about. Constantly judging or getting upset by others lives to feed their own ego, almost like a mental endorphin boost, they feel more alive and satisfied in their own life. These individuals to me, are usually the ones waiting for someone to say something or post something, for example social media ( there's other avenues but for time's sake...) and they will take energy and time out of their day to put horrible nasty comments that are not even some times remotely relevant to what was said, but wanted to pick someone apart through their own typed words~classic case of "Power Trip" They feel, that if they put someone down, then they will have a sense of being more powerful.
The book 'The Celestine Prophecy' by James Redfield, which I highly recommend all that read my blogs, read that book~so good and enlightening, it speaks about the different types of 'Control Dramas' people have that stem from childhood. The 4 types that most have, described in the book are, The Interrogator, The Aloof, The Poor Me/Victim, or The Intimidator. It's fascinating to read about those as I see it everywhere and also in the book is ways of solution. The one not mentioned in the book that I also notice is The Pleaser. The pleaser, as it's not mentioned in the book, to me is a person that lives their life but loves the feeling of pleasing others to get energy from others through gratitude or the feeling of acceptance (positive reinforcement). The ones in the book as well, are different ways to get energy from others. To feel powerful, to gain control in some sense.
This leads into addiction to people:
This can happen in family, romantic partners, co-workers, or even to groups of people. For example in a family a mother may be addicted to her son in a sense that she always wants control of how his life is lived, of his happenings~this would give relief in the sense of keeping control or power through always checking in, possibly putting guilt trips if he doesn't... whatever her desire is for him so she can get satisfaction. Another example would be romantic relationship~addicted to getting energy from each other for happiness. This can become toxic as no one can keep up with "making" someone else happy. That is WAY too much pressure for one person. The inner happiness MUST come from the self first and whatever happiness that is shared with others can be another version of happiness but not the sole reason someone to be happy. This is one major reason relationships don't last.
Attachments: As described above the energy that is attempted to be taken from others in order to gain energy or another words relief, can send energetic cords to the other person and throw the chakras off and kilter with both persons. For example: If person A: is constantly waiting for person B: to call, show up, make plans, ..basically do what they want them to do so they can be happy and if not, then possibly angry at person B, then person A: sends out their Power center (solar plexus) energy in a energetic (etheric) cord to person B, now draining person A, of their sense of Empowerment, confidence, sense of self worth. When one chakra or a few go out of whack, then the others compensate. So if the power center starts draining then possibly the heart chakra will start being "under active" leading to co-dependency and losing sense of identity.
Here's a website that you can look at and study. Even if you don't believe that people have chakras, then see and use it as a behavior learning tool. It's clear and obvious that all humans have thoughts, feelings, emotions, patterns and behaviors.
Either recreational drugs or pharmaceutical drugs~could be used for the same reasons. It's just one is legal and the other isn't. They are relief from and over-active life (stress) or under-active life (wanting a boost) I'll use alcohol, nicotine and caffeine as they are drugs as well just in a legal sense. It's all relief from self in some form but this time it's not to gain energy from others but either to gain it from a drug or to escape life, giving their energy to the power of the drug (co dependency).
This could also be used in the gaining energy from others section but this one has little more to it since there are fluids being exchanged and very close energy connection. When there are fluids from one person to another, they carry on the energy of the each other. This can result in feeling the other persons feelings that much more and if one person has grown a strong attachment to the other, than cords are built. This is especially harmful for those that have multiple partners with out cleansing out their energy field. Chakras not only get blocked but life, finances, sense of power etc all can be affected. Also if one person is using the other for sex then unfortunately negative karma can come back to them, not necessarily in the form of that person being used but in another form. It doesn't matter what the other persons intention is, the energy sent out will on some level, in some way, come back. Always good to check motivations when it comes to others. Using people isn't necessary.
Work is great and if you can find a job that is something that is truly enjoyable. even better. It's when work is pretty much ruling your life and there's not much for a variety of healthy balanced activities and pastimes. If the work is to constantly gain because what you have is never enough or your sense of value comes from a certain dollar amount, then can be tough to get a sense of true satisfaction in life. Besides, think of it, it there are other things to enjoy in life, it can make work that much more fun or can possibly get other ideas on how to make work more productive and also trying new things can be a type of fun you never knew you'd like till you took some time to do it.
Addiction to things staying the same:
This usually stems from fear of change that everyday is almost a repeat or every week is repeat. Addicted to things staying the same can keep someone in a job they hate, in a harmful relationship, eating the same food being appalled at the thought of trying something new..
Mainly I'm talking about the extreme but over loyalty to something that is not healthy can take a hit on the feeling of aliveness in life.
There are other types of addiction but now you have a sense of a few with some possibilities of how and why formed, from another perspective. There are many ways the brain helps to convince the self it is safe and justified to keep addictions alive and well, regardless of the deterioration of the wholeness of self.
Here's one thing to do everyday: is fill up with the Energy of Source aka Love.
I've mentioned different ways to gain energy by going in nature too but this one is one that can be done everyday no matter what addiction that anyone may have.
Sit and imagine a shimmery light with all colors in it and see it filing up your heart space, then filling up the room your in, then the country, then the world then the Universe all the while breathing deep. Connect a root from the base of the spine to the center of the earth and a cord from the top of your head connecting to the energy of Love so that you can keep filling up through out the day, this energy of Love. The intention is for you to feel "Whole" on your own. Helping to alleviate the addiction to any person, place or thing.
Also the chakra link I shared above has a ton of useful techniques that can balance and harmonize many aspects of life.
With appreciation and love~
This is a topic that tends to trigger many and also be one of the biggest components of why some manifestations that are most desired~don't come into fruition.
The saying "Not forgiving someone is like drinking poison waiting for the other person to die"
"Forgiving sets you free not giving the "Ok" on what the other person did in your eyes"
OR something along those lines~ STILL can leave a person quite confused as those are more, to me, "Etheric and fluffy" sounding than practical & applicable advice. Although well intended~
I'm going to break it down with a few stories
Here's a bit of story that may help:
There was a woman married to a man and from her point of view, it was quite abusive~ there was complaining of several maltreatments on her end and the man had his side of the story as well (I'll save details for time sake) now fast forward several years~the man had moved on~forgave himself, in a new relationship and when he heard about that woman he didn't think or torment himself of anything negative~he asked how she was and hoped all was well.
(this is all coming from a girl that told me about this~her parents)
While on the other side (the girl's mother) anytime the father was brought up she would ask immediately if he was still being "x,y,z" with the energy in her voice of hoping it was true to justify why she could still remain mad at him~the woman had moved onto another relationship too but STILL chose to remain in that un-forgiveness state, therefore inadvertently treating her new husband like she couldn't trust him. Then the day came where the father had passed away and when the girl went to eventually tell the mother what had happened she first asked her mother "What would happen if he died, would you finally let it go? What does it take for you to forgive?" The mother said" I don't know, I guess I would let it be done then" The girl told her mother and she fell silent for a while and then they resolved their conversation.
This is a good example of how it really doesn't make the other person "pay" for their perceived mess-up. It certainly doesn't make the person not forgiving or another words letting go of the attachment to a scenario or person, feel better.
What energetically can happen is this:
Not forgiving someone or energetically letting it go. All it does is add that specific vibration into YOUR field of existence. as in your body and the soul essence that surrounds your body, THEREFORE, not only bringing your energy down but also inviting yet ANOTHER situation..not always in the same story form but the essence of it back into your physical experience.
The reason it's a dense energy or low on the vibrational chart is because yes, it has it's own vibration to it but also because generally there are other emotions attached to it as well such as fear, rejection,revenge, betrayal, rage, anger, sadness or something of the like. These energies can not only bring the whole body's health down but can eventually turn into physical ailments.
A list of some reasons why some justify not forgiving:
>>If they don't forgive~ then they can have a sense of power over the other or they are better than the other person. They have something to hold over the head of the other.
That sense of "power" is fear based, that if that gets taken away, then may be the "weaker or one that is too vulnerable" The energy of fear only weakens a persons system energetically and sometimes quite a lot. The energy of love and forgiveness is the energy that will ultimately strengthen.
>>Addiction to drama~ many people are addicted to drama..Below I will source a page that will do all the explaining.
Copy and paste:
>> Forgiving one person means betraying another person.
In not forgiving one person because of another persons wishes, you are not honoring your OWN authenticity and plus, all that does is invite that dense energy into your own field. By entraining to someone else's vibration (their felt emotional state) you can more easily attract the essence of that situation into your own life. Let others write their own story and you can still be a wonderful person~that doesn't have a subscription to that 'story'
~YOU CAN'T BE SAD ENOUGH TO TAKE AWAY SOMEONE ELSE'S SADNESS~
>> Guilt is a BIG one for not forgiving of self
You can't be guilty, ashamed, self hating enough~to go back in time and fix what happened. Do your best to learn and move on making new decisions with a what you perceive as a healthier approach. Plus, if the other person is feeling into your energy about a certain situation..you can make matters worse by not only keeping the low vibe connection alive but not really allowing the energy of freedom and love to come into it's full capacity therefore thinking and acting more clearly and from a 'solid' place.
>> Not forgiving means you don't forget which therefore gives a sense of protection
For all the reasons I mentioned above (how it attracts more of that situations energy) plus the less you allow peace and love the less you are in flow and can feel MORE stuck and brings you down.
Here's a mini story~ One girl got cheated on (of course this goes both ways) by her husband...she then got a divorce and moved on eventually, thinking she could just move on and not go through a letting go and forgiveness as it was somewhat on a subconscious level. That subconscious, now said that she should be careful to watch and monitor her new boyfriend with little to no trust. Everything else in their relationship was great except when they were separate
she would demand that he show her where he was on the phone-camera or every detail about his where-abouts and when they were out, she would accuse him of looking at other girls. He was a really good, faithful guy and loved and wanted to be with her but eventually had to cut the relationship loose because the closer she got, the more paranoid she got that she would be betrayed again.
In this case, as you can see, because of not forgiving and letting go of the first person's behavior, she inadvertently made some one else 'pay' for it. Even when the new man was true to her, she still FELT like she was being cheated on. Still keeping the previous vibration in her system. Otherwise they could have had a much better relationship.
>> It keeps you in connection to the other person. Meaning that if you can just show the other how shitty of a person you are, then they will return and be with you again.
This can be quite counter productive and somewhat manipulative. (although most do not really intend manipulation but that's the energy) This not only can suffocate the other person's energy field (by constantly thinking of them or finding some attachments..fear from thinking you're losing them) It's better to forgive yourself and love them anyway allowing them the freedom to choose you also allowing them more room to breath and possibly consider. When you see yourself in a healthy and whole light, that gives others the opportunity to view you that way too.
>> Ok now for the BIGGY~REVENGE!
This one is one that really gets a lot of people. That if they forgive then the other person (or group of people) then they can't monitor when "They get theirs!" Having a complete sense of false understanding that the other person won't somehow get the same thing happen to them, hurting them just as bad as they hurt.
NO ONE CAN EVER HURT LIKE YOU~ FOR THE SIMPLE AND LASTING REASON THAT THEY ARE NOT YOU. YOU BEING VENGEFUL TO ANOTHER WILL NEVER BE TRULY JUSTIFIED. THAT OTHER PERSON IS NOT OBLIGATED TO FEEL BAD FOR ANYTHING THEY HAVE DONE AT ALL LET ALONE FOR A PERIOD OF TIME.
Besides you are not the judge of them, THEY are. Just like they are not the judge of you, YOU are.
By now you can see many ways to understand and hopefully intesgrate that holding onto a grudge/not forgiving hurts YOU and your life's journey~the most.
Now for a little exercise to get you started on the detaching unhealthy energetic cords between you and others.
Breath deep~ from your head down to your toes. 3 times and now picture a cord of love connecting you to the center of a loving earth~grounding you further. Helps you feel safe.
Picture you and the other~ or if that's too much right now...put another thing that represents that person in front of you and send a cloud of pink Love between you two (picture whatever represents love to you..like hearts or doves or even a golden cloud)~and when you are ready~to that person..this session may take a few times~listen to your body. (This really helps if you're in nature but will work with intention where ever you are, nature naturally grounds the human system.)
As mentioned earlier, if you are having a hell of a time manifesting or keeping your vibes 'high' on a consistency, then this may be the reason. You may not think of "forgiveness" right away but if some of the lower vibes or beliefs and patterns are not lining up with what you are truly desiring with your heart, then this may be the reason why "forgiveness" and can fix it so your dreams for your highest good can easier manifest into your physical reality.
If you are having a hard time talking to someone about some of what I write. Then you can show them this blog~ to help them. I tend to get straight to the point and can be an easier gateway to a healthy conversation as I know many of these subjects are not easy to communicate and they will take what they are interested in receiving, after that then let it go. You can only help others to the ability that they will allow you to.
With appreciation & Love
A few more ways to bring emotions to the surface are:
Essential oils are great for this! If you are planning to do your best to experience and then release a certain emotion that doesn't work for you anymore~for example sadness, maybe you're having a hard time with grief and wish to release it in an healthy way or at least get it started to come up and out of your energy field, might try using oils such as Rose, Cedar, Patchouli, Pine, Ylang Ylang. Can use these either in a diffuser in your home or can put a few drops on a tissue and smell it by breathing in deep breaths and on the out breath allowing the emotions to go with the breath and breath in deep again allowing forgiveness, love and peace to fill you up. You'll have to look up other essential oils to use, there's plenty of sites offering advice. Use your intuition on the best one.
There's plenty of essential blended aromas for incense too. For the same reason as above. Can be used to help relax and diffuse your guard and allow you to release and heal. I personally feel comforted with the scents of Campfire, Pine and Vanilla. I have pine and vanilla essential oil infused candles and Campfire incense ( I use Juniper Ridge ~Pinon or Cedar, for those of you who live out of the country or can't find it near you..
I also Smudge my house and all around me with Sage or Paulo Santo everyday. I find they do a great job neutralizing energy. When I do the smudging~ I call in the vibrations I DO wish to have around me: Love, Peace, Prosperity, Joy, Goofiness etc. Is another way to keep your environment and self clear of others energy and then maybe don't even need to clear yourself of low vibe emotions as much after all as maybe you picked up others sad or angry etc, thoughts, emotions.. I find it's best to clear myself first before claiming something (thoughts, emotions intentions) as mine. Might be someone that is by me or I have a soul connection with at the time, or energy of the area you're currently in. (the accumulation of people's dominating vibes coming together) If you know you are more of an empathic person~this tip of advice can come in handy daily.
There's way too many to write them all down but like the essential oils, there's plenty of sites sharing information about the metaphysical properties of each stone. I can feel the energy of stones but not like the strong vibration raising energy of Moldavite. I keep 6 stones of Moldavite on me at all times. It's not for everyone though, not at first at least. Just start with one and allow your body to acclimate to their strong energy. A few popular ones known and easy to get are Crystal quartz, Rose Quartz, Citrine, Jasper, Amber, Tigers eye, black onyx...
Also look to see if the stone needs to be cleansed of energy it soaks up. I cleanse mine with the sun or sage. There's plenty of youtube videos that can show you how to do that. Some use the moon but for some reason that doesn't resonate with me. Do what feels right in your body. Your body will tell you when you ask it from a healthy standpoint, meaning not when you're hungry, tired, on drugs/alcohol, sad, upset...just when you feel fairly neutral.
You're body has many more reflexology maps than just your feet and hands. There's reflexology for tongue, face, back, and scalp.
Everyday when you touch your body either scrubbing it with organic soap (please consider not putting products on your skin that have too many harsh dyes and synthetic fragrances, your pores absorb it into your body)
Or by dry brushing ( I do this everyday..it's an Ayervedic practice you can look up) Or by putting oils or organic lotions/creams on your skin..if you say you can't because you have oily skin..there's products that can help with that. Sometimes the body produces more oils because your using too drying of soap or over exfoliating. When you're touching your body and massaging the muscles slightly notice what you feel, tightness? Chronic soreness in one area? Do emotions come to the surface? Ask your body to please show you what is best to come to the surface to be released either then or later on at night when you return home again. If you are following my blog then you know that I have already discussed how the body harbors emotions for every impactful event in our existence and I had already talked about ways to release pent up emotions. If not scroll through and read some of the previous blog posts.
As you are putting lotion on or scrubbing~nows a perfect time to practice bodily acceptance. Tell it how you appreciate it's service to you, you love it, thank it, that you are there for it and you are here to help it stay in good healt Health is also allowing your energy to be harmonized as much as possible too by doing the emotional clearing but first recognize what is there, and then allow it to release what it needs to and then the love, peace and acceptance that is already there waiting for your approval of it will feel more apparent in your body..your life.
Here's a simple quick practice you can do everyday twice a day when you wash your face.
Emotions are seen through the face..I'm sure you've heard of "worry wrinkles, laugh lines) Even if you are straight faced when you are angry or sad (some people are) the energy still can collect in the face.. some people get red or turn white in their face due to certain witnessed events.
When you are washing your face breath imagining your allowing your pores and energy field on your face, head and chest to come to the surface and out~going down the drain filling it's place with golden energy of vitality, youthfullness, zest for life, calmness. Some reasons for acne is that people hold their emotions in...generally this is anger/frustration. I wash my face with a face brush and also get my neck and decollaté and when I put my serums and creams on I say nice things to them and thanking them for helping me stay glowing, youthful and vibrant! You always have time for the things that are important to you~please make yourself a priority even for stuff as simple as this.
A lot of emotions that have been pent up are from child hood~which is still to some degree playing out in your adult life granted it was never dealt with then. If you can consider time is not linear and whatever you experience doesn't just go away with out first noticing it. Those child hood memories can sabotage your current situation. Feelings such as not feeling like life is being fair, favoritism, frustration etc. can be from the inner child..that will have to be either the next blog or the following one~way too much to address with it but something to think about a bit for now when you're releasing.
It's all gonna be ok, it's just that all the Abraham hicks videos or manifestation devices and advice/tactics can only go so far ~because if you are not dealing with what keeps you out of consistent vibration of the thing you're doing your damnedest to experience, could be long in coming. Take charge Take your power back by addressing what needs attention first and then can find it easier to be in vibration for longer periods at a time.
Till next time
With appreciation and kindness